weather is cooler , my mood has been in the fall . Zao heart trouble , tired face, I was not radiant . Looked out the window the night wind feels like to vent their emotions got so looking forward to the atmosphere for a long time …
noisy downstairs at the moment but I added a Ji points uneasy .
; after months of simple living , everything did not change much when
midnight forget more forget sleeping when suddenly up smoking the day I did not get a little too cold more than words .
I thought my heart healed , no longer hostile to the community. I thought I could quiet life , no longer struggling with their Kuku , but nothing of this inner feeling takes me deep wrap . I am positive and optimistic , it seems to me the sun flashed only for some time. I deeply feel the pain Ku , to forsake all, to put aside all emotions , all the ideas .
I need to deeply reflect on their own over the years, I still did not find its own direction, did not find their favorite things, I thought he was very capable of self . Matters at the end found that I did not find anything , I only consume their own youth.
I sometimes doubt it , I need affection and love? Sometimes numb to feel lost everything does not matter , even their own .
Has been suffering in life , has been in the memories of torture , has been hovering in the hope and disappointment in the pace gradually numb hopelessness … … did not stop , heart as early as dull